wisdomseeking2013
wisdomseeking2013:

thelovenotebook:

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I am always imaging what Beth and I would be talking about laying in bed right before we fall asleep. Not a day goes by where I don’t talk to her either! I miss her more and more everyday, losing your soulmate is the by far the most pain a person can experience! If for some reason you know yours but are apart, trust me and run back to them and tell them how you feel!!

I do this every night and I pray for the chance to make things right with her. I miss everything about her even those things that drove me nuts and pissed me off. The good times, bad times, sexy times, funny times, and every single minute I spent with her I miss!!! How I wish I could get a few more minutes to add to this list

wisdomseeking2013:

thelovenotebook:

More good vibes here

I am always imaging what Beth and I would be talking about laying in bed right before we fall asleep. Not a day goes by where I don’t talk to her either! I miss her more and more everyday, losing your soulmate is the by far the most pain a person can experience! If for some reason you know yours but are apart, trust me and run back to them and tell them how you feel!!

I do this every night and I pray for the chance to make things right with her. I miss everything about her even those things that drove me nuts and pissed me off. The good times, bad times, sexy times, funny times, and every single minute I spent with her I miss!!! How I wish I could get a few more minutes to add to this list

Positive spin on a negative situation

Lonely, sad, frustrated, confused, heartbroken, pissed off, scared, wanting to give up, unappreciated, loser, worthless and not good enough, ugly, unloved, and forgotten. Wow these are all the feelings and emotions that I am feeling tonight and it sucks when the one thing that I want most in this world feels like she is miles away. As the tears build and start swelling up in my eyes I reach the point of no return and I begin to cry uncontrollably into a pillow that I grip close to my heart for the comfort it gives me and the memories it brings of the beautiful angel that used to rest her head there every night. Strange thing is, I am grateful for every one of those tears because tonight I was able to feel these emotions even though they are the undesirable ones I used to fear so much. I didn’t have to run from them or store them away with whatever copping agent I deemed worthy and up for the task of complete and total oblivion. Tomorrow I pray that good feelings will be present in my mind and god willing I will be able to feel those too!!!